I have my personal prayer/worship time outside. There used to be this cat that would come to see me in the mornings. I started calling him George. He was very friendly. He would come over to where I pray and in typical cat fashion he would rub on my leg. He would jump up next to me and just purr away. One really cold morning he actually curled up in my lap. Being the animal lover that I am, I welcomed George to all of my prayer times. I would pet him and sort of “love” on him like we pet lovers do.
One day George stopped showing up. I miss him. I realized that I would start looking for George as I approached my place of prayer. As I prayed I would look for him and wonder where he might be and if he was going to show up. He hasn’t in a long time. I miss him.
I see George periodically. There is a canal that runs down the back of the property. I see George down there sometimes stalking something. He’s doing, you know, cat things. Hunting, stalking, killing. You know, he’s a cat. I see him often playing with one of the dogs nearby. They seem to have a good relationship and they like to run around and chase each other in the mornings. I’m pretty sure George doesn’t even think about me anymore. That’s ok really. I mean it really doesn’t affect my life. It doesn’t change my prayers, it won’t change what I am going to do or how I am going to do it. In fact, really, it’s George who is missing out. He doesn’t get my lovin’ in the mornings. That’s all.
I was thinking about all of this the other day and wondered if maybe that is not a picture of our prayer lives sometime. Do we show up for a while to a time and place of prayer. We meet God there. He loves us. Then we get distracted. We stop showing up. We’re distracted by so many things. Life in general is a distraction. We’re busy, making that living and providing for our families. We’re doing family things. Of course we have our fun times too that keep us busy. Soon we’re not really even thinking about our personal prayer/worship time.
I wonder if God looks for us? As He approaches is He hoping to see us? Somehow I think He might be. You know, I really don’t think me not showing up for prayer affects God very much. I don’t think it alters His sovereignty, changes His plans, or thwarts His purposes. In fact, I think the one missing out is me (us). We don’t get loved on by God in the way He wants to love on us.
I miss George. It saddens me to think that there are times when God probably says, “ I miss Keith”.
Kind of a weird little take on prayer, but that’s just the way I see it.